stay in my arms, please.

today is just another one of my lazy days. the greatest achievement of the day is prolly just waking up before noon. no, i don't usually wake up at noon of course.
another night, another dream wasted. i woke up this morning and came across something that made me reminisce certain things. my inner instantly breaks down and somehow i realize just how much i miss it. just a few more months and we'll go separate ways. it's heartbreaking to think that we had so many wonderful memories spent together. but then what's keeping us down is our own decision in facing life. these past months i noticed that everything didn't feel the same. i wonder how are things with you. keeping silent and distant is sure a way of putting on the 'backoff' sign i suppose. that's alright. may time heals it all.
desolation hit me with crippling strength. enough with the mindless ramblings already. mind boggling life routine that hits me as of late : (i) stoning self with much subconscious in front of the deary lappy. (ii) turning from lappy to tv. yes. its called sweet revenge. lord knows how long ive hand my hands on em for good. insert evil laughter if you may. (iii) mother has been bragging me on getting my ass in the kitchen and to work with the ovens. i might give it a thought though. heh. after all, i need to live this life. (iv) and oh, i need to go out! but not as long as i unpeel this dreadful mask im wearing. sigh. lord, spare me some escapism!