randomly crammed.

22/04/08 BEL 260 (Preparatory Course For MUET)
26/04/08 CTU 101 ( Pemikiran dan Tamadun Islam)
29/04/08 MGT 153 (Introduction To Business)
03/05/08 QMT 181 (Introduction To Statistics)
04/05/08 ECO 162 (Microeconomics)
11/05/08 FAR 150 (Financial Accounting 2)

ouh yeay. *applauses*
3 down, 3 to go.

semi-excited, wholly relaxed.

it's like you're trying to portray something. trying to tell the world how happy and complete you are. pretend. you know it when you want something yet you can't have it. but you feel so bad inside, because you know you've done something bad. you have hurt. you've uttered painful words. its irreversible. you can't take back what you've done, what you've said. you're confused, you are! feeling nostalgic. you're a bad person, bad bad person. but what can you do about it? you only wish you could erase your mistakes. which is clear that wishing doesnt do you any good.

righteous. enough of those atrocious emoitism. will be having finals starting 22nd. which is this upcoming tuesday. and all the things that are sure to happen. late night studying. after-studying movies session. late night carb consuming. pre exam symptoms, late night karaoke-ing in so called releasing tension (aaah, i stil remember this one, bihah and ili. :) ). ouh well. the list goes on. will be finishing on the 11th of may. still long way to go. *sigh* but on the other hand, couldnt wait for holidays to come.

weekend frowns : its an utterly awful shame that i had to get back to campus early (as in today). netball tournaments. yeahh. i know. nak exam pun ade game. what can you do when you do what people tell you to do? anyways, the goods : looking forward to meeting the gurlfriends. and not to forget bihah's birthday. surprise surprise. ;)
and so, merry fryfriday to you! cross your fingers for me lasses!

sidenotes : a) happy upcoming 5th birthday lil kiddo! :). b) azwan adam, missing you.
mental notes : a) go out with thomas before he leaves for aussie. b) vacation away with friends during sem break!

signed, sealed, delivered

i was practically dragging myself to pack my things up. as i will be going back to beloved majestic malacca in less than 24 hours. my little sister, mirrlea, saw me packing and suddenly came in the room.

'kak lynn nak balik melaka dah ke?'

'ha'aaa. esok dah nak balik daaa.'

'alaaaaa.'

she then made her 'long ten cent face' and went downstairs. lord. i felt a pang of guilt so sudden. not being able to spend more time with her. and whats worse not being there to celebrate her 5th birthday this coming 22nd of april. how time flies. i still remember when you were just born, little sister. innocent and adorable. but now, heh, such brat you've turn in to. i guess they're all the same. lovable when you're small. annoying when you grew. no, really. i really think so. anyhoos, i still love yous annoying pain in the ass sisters.

'kak lynn, birthday mirrlea dah nak dekat. 22nd april.'

she then makes goofy faces and showing me the calendar which she made a big cross on 22nd of april.

'haaa. so, kenape?'

'alaa. kak lynn nak bagi ape kat mirrlea?'

'mirrlea nak kak lynn bagi ape kat mirrlea?'

'heee. nak pesenttt. mirrlea nakkkk...... sandal, color pencil, mainan.. bagi jelah ape ape pun.'

'amboi. wish list can not go.'

wan dinie diyana, 11. wan mirrlea diyana, 5

fear not however little sister. i have already bought you something you might like. you will have it when the day comes. too bad i couldnt witness the look on your face when you open it. it wasnt something big or fancy though. but it was something i chose. hope you like it. take care. loves.

ajim! nahhhh.

nabihah kamarudin.

its a bit messy. but it shows how messy much i love you. :D

dearest nabihah kamarudin, its 40 minutes past 1 now and you are officially nineteen for one hour and forty minutes! yeay you! you will never know how much our friendship means to me. dari winnie the pooh sampai la ke mickey mouse. thank you for forever being there as a mother. hee. i love you so bloody damn much. have a good year ahead babe. ouh. and for the record, dont you ever think you get to escape just because its study leave. you hang in there. we'll get you good back in malacca nanti. *evil laughs*

location : gerai mak jan.
content : two pairs of eyebags from the overnite. haha. one hell of a fun isnt it bihah? :)

impulse goods?

i do not feel like studying at the moment and certainly not in the mood of filling myself with rabbit nuggets. and so, my impulse has just been suddenly intrigued and inspired to draw. and this is what i came up with. much thanks dear sister for letting me using your magic colours. i love you too.

HELLO LOVE!
p.s : i miss you!

and this is my so-called-masterpiece. :)
(the dark blue is too dark actually. but i dont have any other colours. and the waves' curves are cacated. oh well.)

so, amar, what do you think? do i look like 19 or 9? lols.

be your own pet.

what i feel right now?

its like when you have ten dozen rabbits, and you dont know what to do with em anymore. so you have no choice but to deep fry em. and eat em with chilli sauce. you know? but then you are let down cause bits and pieces keep getting stuck between your teeth and it doesn't taste like chicken AT ALL. tastes like sh*t really. so now, instead of dozens of rabbits you have hundreds of vile tasting rabbit nuggets that you can't sell nor can you eat. you're probably going 'WHAT IN THE WORLD IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?'. well lasses, it just means that im a pathetic jobless girl with rabbit nuggets. tralala. im being melancholy-ly melodramatic. its a sign of boredom you see. can you see? can you? gah. there i go again.

p.s : this is just a metaphor. i don't really have rabbit nuggets. hell, i dont even eat rabbits.

april and i.

april is swiftly coming and going. time has never been kind. 10 hours go by like 10 minutes and before i know it, its already a new week. itis kind of a pro and con situation for me. i have been so bogged down by the whispers and voices in my head that have been questioning my point of views. what point of views could a 18++ year old possibly have concerning life, you might ask? well, before you start criticizing, try to remember that one point of your life when you were so puzzled about everything. you try so hard to be blithe but somehow your mind doesnt want to behave that way. that is how i am now. i am filled with CONTRASTING IMAGES (i think). i really need a break. they should put me under hypnosis, if only for two minutes. to be cut off from the world for a mere 120 seconds would be bliss, just enough to regain my mental stability. ouh, and by the way mother, a vacation off on the island with friends this semester would be great. pretty pretty pleaseee with sugars on top? ouhkayh, i should stop.

spotted.

i have just found out that the guy who acted as john tucker's brother (the one with long rocker hair) in john tucker must die is gossip girl's dan humphrey. ouh. you know. that sexy sweet charming dan humphrey. *swoons*

ouh and btw, it was the first movie i watched with si booncit.

and i have just made a pre-course registration. ohh emm ghee. semester 3? law already? im running old am i? feels like a blink.

sidenotes, im having a running nose and i have been sneezing a-lot since past two days. kleenex anyone?

current favourite, click click click.
birthdays shmirtdays

perky blondie.

why, unconsciously! my tide-high spirits of studying for finals falter in between text book emissions and the (increasing) amount of free periods. mother, didnt i tell you home is not a place to study? no matter how hard i try to restrain myself from talking to the computer, the restrainment will only last for a few moment. well, here i am, talking to the computer again. but at least i finished another two chaps before letting myself taking break. so dont you worry mother, i did study.

on the other side, due to amount of 'unkeptable' annoyance, i just have to write this down. i also find myself especially hate those who keep asking for picture comments in myspace? no offence, if you're a proper friend, that is acceptable. proper as in real, not the ones who are only friends as in 'you're-in-my-radar friend'. but if you hardly even talk to me and suddenly asking for picture comments? pfft. that is seriously atrociously annoyingly unacceptable. and it is not once that you kept asking, many in fact. what? too in to popularity contest? the 'lets-see-who-gets-the-highest-picture-comments' thing, is so not cool. i'm sorry, lasses. it just get on my nerves at times.

sidenotes, i constantly find myself depicting disinterest rather than the celebrated continuous banters of child-like humor, which is terrible. a fatuous disposition. proper english is a paved invite to momentary glances, and it ain't good. i can't be autodidactic. suppose, im merriest with self-proclaimed social enthusiasts. embracing the non-serious part of our lives, frolicking in sheer things, learning the power of saying yes, or saying no. the socially handicapped and the youth-embracing scantily clad cannot mix. even after all those years of trying, the juxtaposition demands a name for itself. and the name, clearly states, impossibility. lord, whatever i am blabbing right now, must not be put in mind. i honestly am now on the verge of semi-insanity in between the books, where pressures walk hand in hand with tense around here. intelligence is coveted. in my world, intelligence and social abilities do not spell doom. it's perfectly mortal to let loose, lasses. smile! :))

You're currently reading si adlynn's craps.
Well, don't stop.
It might just get interesting.

sylph transition.

a netballer and proud of it. :))

jimmy! seeing you posting your handball pics itches me to post mine too. haha. yes yes. michelle gedik. fine. tapi nak post jugak! haha. ;p
we dont really have big tournaments like KARISMA this semester. only friendly matches and open tournaments to boost em team's fire. this one was during the friendly match with RISDA. thank you abg kecik! :)

thats lea and kak echa. (and the ballers behind us. aah. i see your eyeballs widen now.)

im the goal defender and i defend the goal! :D

'star jump' pfft. ili, diam. :p
kak fasya, the center-woman. :D
ouhkayh, this is me, half retarded at the moment, imitating the cacat walk. my ankle got injured in the previous inter faculty tournament. ili taught me the cacat walk! :p
waiting for rebound. ive always wanted to jump like em iverson or lebron james in NBA. dream on adlynn, dream on. haha.
ini kak shira, ze goal attacker.
cik siti ili, 19, cacat? ;p
aah. here comes the camwhores.
sidekicks?
oooh, si si, we havez be-you-ze-ful ladiez up for ze grab.
another cacat.
abang muhadirin, a.k.a abg black si pegawai sukan.
introducing my super gurlfriend, lesbian partner, twinno and everything nice, ili bili. she plays MASUM oke? jangan main-main. :)
kak myza, we'll be missing you. :(
i got the rebound!
way to go kak!
kak fyna si goal sharp shooter. :)
kak echa, kak hanis and kak ili.
i did mention we're a bunch of camera whores didnt we?
spot the cacat.
okayh, lea, u cacat now.
kak shiraaaaaa. pengkacau!
adorable but unaffordable. ;)

we won the game needles to say. (cehwah) not to brag, seriously, but uitm melaka's netballers are quite feared by others i must say.
majulah sukan untuk negara?

naked peekaboo.

woke up at 10am (waking up late during the holidays is so me). took a glance at the clock on the wall, grabbed the towel, went to bath. got ready. headed off with mother to kl. mother was supposed to drop me off at library kajang. but somehow, for unidentified reason, it was closed. since she's running late, had to tag along with mother to her meeting at jln ampang instead. asked her to dropped me off at ampang park. ended up sitting at McD studying business management for two solid hours while waiting for mum to finish. thanks to my apple ipod turned on loud and the sudden concentration of doing management notes, im in my own world at the corner of noisy McD (which is by then full with people coming for lunch) ignoring the rest of the human being walking past and taking weird glances. blimey. 1.30pm, mother called, informing that the meeting has ended and i may start leaving McD and wait for her outside. packed things, stuffed stuffs, off i go taking with me the unfinished nuggets.
in the car,

'kak nak g library bangi or library UPM ke?'

looked at the digital clock in the car, kept quiet for a second, 'shaked' my head giving the NO sign.

'balik rumah terus lah.'

'ai, kate nak study harini? dah nak balik rumah da?'

'dah tade mood la nak pegy library study and all. org tgh syok-syok study tibe-tibe dah time out. momentum da lari maa. balik rumah study jelaaa.'

'yerlah tue. balik nanti talk to computer.'

'tade talk to computer laaaa. study punyeee. hish.'




went to accompany mother lunch-ing in kajang town then. bought some stationaries in czip lee, paid bills at maxis, met some school juniors (as it is balik sekolah time at that time) and headed back home. changed clothes, terus park bontot dekat study table. kakak studied, miya did her homework, mother napped. bookmarked the management bible and frolic with me already. managed to finish two chapters. righteous! sat studying for almost 4 hours. i think i might have butt cram? there, done with that. my perpetuate love-hate affair on what to study first tonight will end up with statistics. hah. am now off to watch evening cantonese series with mother. excuse me, i am a good seed. i swear. dangg.

ring a ding dong.

chatting buddy n picture sharing partner. it goes both way. *smiles*

startled seconds.

good lord.
dear ili diyana
and
anbreen aqeela
and
azra aziah
and
nabihah kamarudin
and
anise juanine
and
diana ibrahim.
where have u guys been? it feels ages. i miss yous.

whip!

i am deviated. translucent merriness? screw that. i have just been turned on by these. well, i might not have the perfect-est taste in fashion. but simpleness is what i wear. dear santa, i know its early, but i have been good (or so i think) and heres my current wish list. *toothy grins*

ooooh. the fishy sketch and the snoopy peanuts one. i loike!

as for these tees, i loike em all. ouh yeah baby. come to mama.

tunics. hah. ive just found out thats what its called. pfft. :p

currently listening to somewhere over the rainbow by jason castro. *swoons* wait, excuse me, what world do you live in? the reality world? yeah, righteous.