coffee and cigarattes.

its funny when your mind play tricks on you. making you believe something was destined to be when with just a twist of faith, it goes the other way round. (dear god, i dont blame you.)
sometimes what you want doesnt always go your way. thats when they call it LIFE you see. during this whole scenario, i was rather amused with the idea of wanting something out of despair relatively your own needs. its clear to me that if you look deeper you'll realize that wants and need goes in different directions. different meaning goes with it if you put in a sentence.

i want you.
i need you.

sure, if you want to convince some dude that he's appreciated you use both terms. but without you knowing, thay vary in a particular way. i dont want someone if 'want' is all i need from him, i must 'need' him. im clarifying my wants and needs to a whole new level until i figure out who is a want and who is a need.
and something tells me i have the answer yet i only have to find out what are they. complicated twisted enough? you tell me.

altruistic motive they're all are.