Have you ever been in an awkward love scene before?

'I amaze myself with all these messages I send you.
I outdo myself to write these messages for you. It might not come everyday.
Yet there's so much I'd wanna say.
They might not mean much.
It may not mean anything.
Of all messages and such, I ask of you one thing.
To continue on reading.
Of all the words I could compile.
It may even reach a mile.
Though I may not have brought you the light.
I would wanna wish you sweet dreams and good night.'

Seriously, tell me, what kind of nowadays guy type this just to say good night?

'The deep sea would unravel many hidden treasures as the deep space hides unthinkable truth.
The rhythm to a saxophone lies infinite meanings, the vocals of an opera singer wouldn't mean a thing.
Take note to every word out of your teacher's mouth, never leave it down south.
Remember what your parents taught you, you'll regret if you don't think it's true.
The way things are, if the sun has the stars, the earth has the moon, the beautiful days would have the darkest nights.
To tell you what I have in views, is that my heart lies with..you.'

No kid. I was beginning to shake when I read that.

'Most of it aren't connected to anything.
The last line says everything.
What actually clouded my mind, what I had in mind for almost 2 years but I blurred myself from it, what everything meant to me.'

There you go, the freaking 2 years truth unraveled. Told him of how I've been lost for quite some time and still am till now, I'm still in a stage of figuring self out and would do no good to anyone at the nearest time.

'Let me be your knight in shining armor and be in your aid to find you yourself.'

Geez. You've really crossed the friendship line, and I effin' hate it. I had nothing to say but,,

'I'd be really honored to have you guiding me.
But then again, I somehow don't think it's the right thing to do.
I mean, it surely wouldn't be a fair thing to do to you.
I guess I just have to do this thing alone and on my own.
And when I am in a clear state of mind as to what I want and how I want it to be, will I only be able to make it right.'

To no avail,

'I'll let you find your own.
I'll let you be what you want to though at the same time I want to be there for you.
I will be there when you'd need a shoulder to lean on and
I want you to be loved at every single second.'

Crap. Now he's insisting. And the best I could come up with was..

'Thank you, really.
Well, you are here whenever I need you,
you're always there too when I need someone to talk to,
and I know I am blessed as I'm being loved by so many friends of mine.
How can I ever ask for more? :)'

You know how you've befriended a good friend for so long and being harsh and wrecking the friendship is the least thing you wanted to do? Yet you were afraid by being not harsh, he would get the wrong message? It wasn't easy. But I guess finally he got me.

'Probably you don't have to?
But I'll leave you to yourself then.
I'll entertain myself with papers and numbers. :)'

There you go.

Dear Lad, I'm sorry. You're just too good of a friend to be more. And I can't bring myself to face the whole awkward scene. You're perfect, yet not for me. Cheers for the ever lasting friendship!