al-fatihah.

dear gurl friend,
i was shocked and puzzled when i received your text the other night. i even thought my heart stopped beating for awhile. i couldnt believe what you said at first. and i have no absolute idea what i should reply to you.
i wont say i know how it feels like to lose someone you love. cause i dont. ( technically i mean) especially its not the normal type of 'losing'. all these while and all these years ive known you , you has always been the toughest, strongest one among us. yes, its hard to deal with losing your loved one. yes, its hard to find yourself moaning over the loss in the morning every time u open your eyes wishing he'd be there. yes, its hard to only be able to look at his pictures and making you remembering all the memories thats left. yes, its hard to cope up and move on like what every other human in your room advised you to. yes, its hard when your eyes leaks every night before you sleep not having the strength to swallow the truth. yes, its hard losing that someone when you finally found someone who really understands you and really loves your every flaws.
but no matter how many hards and pains you need to deal with, you still have other people who care and love you. always and forever. and i am one of them. and like you said, know that when you wake up every morning, he'll be watching you from above, away from your eyes, but close to your heart. take care sue. may he be blessed by god. amin.