tie a knot.

im feeling shitloads better now, that everything's calming down. or you know, probably just for now (please, God no) and yeah, Lucas Scott is keeping me distracted from the hectic life lately. not that hectic, really-- but just, confusing. yeah, okay. im weird like that. apparently the original plan has now became one unoriginal plan. whatever it is, praying hard that the merry-ness will still be there. lets put them far far aside and just have fun with ourselves shall we babes? damn, calming much?
despite the fact, and all the ramblings about me being fine, about me being good, things getting better, i knew this would happen all along. happiness dont come permanent, its not one of the things that i have just learned. i knew this was going to happen, sooner or later. when everything is right, when you start feeling a little bit better than any other average days, and you don't fake smiles anymore. it's never permanent, is it? somebody stop me! (wait, OKAY, im getting more dramatic, im aware.)