half stoned.

Bijou Bazaar, Hap Seng Tower, 10/10/2008.

I feel so out of place. I keep telling myself that the heat’s setting off an epidemic inside my head. because my moods have been too theatrical lately. my sleeps were far more even worst needless to say. sleepless in seattle lendu. that could hit the box office some day? heh. as if. oh, i place blame on the heat, the erratic weather we’ve been having. yet I can’t help but think it’s something else. some kind of buried terror inside of me just waiting to bite it’s way out… it is a day by day struggle, trying to keep these feeling at bay. like today; I actually felt like a walking nerve bomb. grr. you feel me?

i am in mood of stating my disgruntles. so if you're interested, proceed, if not, thank you come again.

i feel that it is unfair for some people who have different hardworking level and different abilities, in the end possessed different output of work (read : an unfair output of work). okay. i am really scrabbling way out of the line. can you please pull me in? and so, what i was trying to say is, how i very much often envy those people who do not have to work hard to achieve what they aim for. picture this, A comes to school, A goes back and sleep, A study for an hour, went back to sleep, A comes to class, A sits for tests, A scored. B comes to school, B goes to the library and study, B continued in the room, stayed up late and woke up early to study, B comes to class, B sits for tests, B still get the same average result. can you catch what im throwing? no? however, it is the mother nature to be unfair. part of life. YOU RAN INTO IT, YOU SWALLOW IT, YOU DEAL WITH IT. may be, some people have more luck, may be some people work smart, may be just may be may be. no cries, no whines lads and lasses. can someone sets in euphoricness pretty pretty please?